写自己

别人说

我像冰山

难以接近

靠近了会被冻伤

没有表情

让人摸不着我的内心

有时我会反省

自己是否真的那么地难以相处

坦白说

我不会说话

更不会说取悦别人的话

当我感受到别人的痛楚

我没有反应

因为我不想让别人伤心

在某些事情

我选择掩饰

因为

我想不到说出来

浪费别人的时间

更何况

有些事情

还是需要自己去解决的

别人说我很独立

什么事情都亲力亲为

这也许是我自己锻炼的吧

不想为别人添麻烦

在加上完美主义作祟

所以我对自己有一定的要求

低调果然是我的毛病吧

我想

我还是比较擅长成为别人的过客吧

Song | Life

Recently, I fell in love with this two song.
A good description to my current life.

Invisible by Skylar Grey

I take these pills to make me thin
I dye my hair, and color my skin
I tried everything, to make them see me
But all they see, is someone that's not me

Even when I'm walking on barb wire
Even when I sat myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to lock my past
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Here inside, my quiet heart
You cannot hear, my cries for help
I tried everything, to make them see me
But every one, sees what I can't be

Even when I'm walking on barb wire
Even when I sat myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to lock my past
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Sometimes when I'm alone
I pretend that I'm a queen
It's almost believable

Even when I'm walking on barb wire
Even when I sat myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to lock my past
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

It's probably a time for me to think about life and change to better...

709 a day to remember

七月九日
黄色
一个象征着干净选举的颜色

一些人 选择逃避
一些人 选择躲起来
一些人 选择默默支持
一些人 选择站出来

因为不公平 所以反对
因为看不过眼 所以开口
因为被压制 所以反抗
因为真理 所以坚持

但愿黄色成功
在我们不需要它的时候
就是民主来临的时候

《金色琴弦》

最近都一直在追看《金色琴弦》

这是继环绕着音乐的《交响情人梦》后

深深吸引我的剧情

对于笛子，我还是那么地着迷

对于小号，我更是彻底地改观

对于他们对音乐的执着，我再次的思考自己真正喜欢的是什么

对于他们的努力，我不得不反省自己对梦想究竟付出了多少

喜欢一样东西，就是全心全意的专研、磨练、挑战，不厌其烦的重复再重复，渴望完全的掌握，并加以自己的想法及风格，表达自己

当自己再深一步地了解自己喜爱的东西，就会更深入地了解内心的自己

甚至遇上挫折时，也会坦然地面对

也许真的是时候改变自己了...

人生无常

深夜间
电话想起
通常都是不祥的预兆
从另一边传来的正是最不想听到的噩讯
大姨丈过世了
除了眼眶溢出的泪水
一切都如时间停顿了似
没有人来得及给予任何反应
午夜时分
通知其他人的表哥又是带着怎么样的心情呢？
我无法想象
可是心已隐隐地抽痛
沉重
紧紧地压着心口
原来我还是那么害怕失去
也害怕别人所失去的
人生无常
从前死亡总是发生在公公婆婆的辈份
如今却开始发生在那么接近我的辈份中
开始察觉死亡是那么地靠近
领悟到生命是多么的微弱
人生无常
要好好地珍惜身边的人